[Vala]

Ok.... this is really hard to say. I started to have these dreams about a year ago. Before I new any thing about middle earth of any weird live of weird things. I was a normal girl living in Roswell New Mexico. I was 14 years old.
Exactly a month after my b-day I started to have dreams of mist. The mist would surround me in all places. It was a very cold mists not any thing like I have ever felt before. I was scared. I new I was only dreaming but it felt so weird. In my dream I was someone different. I felt like I was hiding from something…something terrible. Then it would jump to a new land and I was not a lone. There were these people, some short some tall and some had weird shapes to them. It was hard enough to be there not knowing were I was. Then they just sort of stopped. Like the dreams were not important. There an again I would have I dream where I was running in the forest bare footed. I felt free and so determine to see this in reality.
Then I heard this movie was coming out. LOTR. It seemed like a good movie. Any ways I saw it 4 times. I could not stop. It was like I was watching memories on a screen. ……… This sounds like I am just a big fan. Well I started to get scared for some reason. I looked up on Tolkien’s history. I even read his essay on a “fairy story”. I took his ideas and thoughts very seriously. He gave me inspiration. But I got to thinking. Could he be telling the truth? I mean is there a world out there which we have forgotten or wanted nothing to do with because of our greediness and expansion of technology. We have mad them leave. Because we will never have the loveliness and protection of the land we have stolen.
I started to read books on these things. Not just Tolkien but other authors of the same field. We have taken what was given to us but we are tarring it apart. We have chased them out of our lives and have no memory of these people and creatures that ounce lived. We would not know these stories or even a part of a story if it were not true. For years people have been trying to tell what a fairy story is or even why people have a thought on if the ever lives. But it did.
After my 15 b-day I started to have more dreams. Some with actual people in them. People think I ounce knew or have seen. I started to act different. My parents were not my parents. My life was not my like. Even what I think its not me. I have tried so hard to understand myself for the past year. Then these dreams started to come to me.
…………………………. But what I am about to say will sound gay… I mean like you want believe me and if you do not that is fine but I think I really need some one to talk to.