[Vala]

To be honest. I do not see myself as being apart of this life. Like I am not supposed to be here. Yes it is true everyone is the same in my life and I am the one different. But there is a reason. Not to get personal or anything with my life but here it goes. When I was born people said I was different. I did not act like babies did at my age. I could see almost clearly and I was very quiet. My real mother was adopted. I do not know here side of the story of her real parents. But I am searching now. But I do know they come from Europe. My father is a half Native American plus white and Irish…i have never fit into my family. My sister and brother live with my mom and I live with my dad…
I have been thinking of what is in my blood. Like where do I really come from? And I have know realized its not from here. I have always longed for a family of which was my own. I yearn for the life of freedom of technology. But I am stuck on a chain of guilt. I want to fit in. then again I do not. For I am scared if I do I will parish into a woman of stupidity and go in sain. Sorry if you might fell wrongly about it.
I do know one thing and that is something is out there I and I hope to find it. I really do. I am scared but if I have the determination to find what Tolkien has been looking for or actually found then I will do the same.
As for my dreams if I tell you please do not laugh. For this is not some fan dream or anything I made up. There are not a lot of people who believe in the life we could have. …..I recommend Tolkien’s essay on a fairy story it will be worth the time.


Love Vala…tell me if you would like to here my dreams…. thank you for your time.
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