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"Fainu if I was to loose you again I don't believe anything could save me then. Part of my curse is one I brought about on myself. Indeed I do feel guilty for the death of my father. Yet there was nothing I could do to save him. His spirit had already left his body and all that remained was an empty shell. One who tries often fails many times. I know this for a fact." She looked up at her friend. To her the feelings she had for him didn't die when Manstarmin died. She would always love the elf she grew up with. He was her young love and nothing or no one was going to change that for her. Cree looked down at her empty mug. She hadn't even noticed that the bottom was bone dry and there was nothing else contained in the mug. For some reason she felt that at her search for life it had only began like the mug itself. She was empty to all feelings and she knew it was her own doings. "Fainu, I never forgot you and I never will. To me you are the closess thing I have now to my past life. You tell me of how it feels to be unwanted and unloved. Yet can you not remember long ago. You had pledged your life to me and I had done the same to you. We had promised that the feelings we had between each other would never die 'less one was to find their escape from middle earth."
Cree didn't want her friendship to ever end with Fainu. She thought of him as the final half of her soul. She needed him to be with her and didn't want him to abandon her or die any time soon. If it came to it, Cree would take him to Aman and get his curse. Cree only wanted his and her own pain to go away. She missed the joy that she had in her life at one point. She missed the walks under the moon and stars. She even missed the parties they would go to. Cree missed so much and knew there was only one hope of bringing it back. "Fainu, lets go to Aman and get rid of this curse. I don't want to live my life in fear and I know you don't want to live your whole life not knowing when the final stroke of the curse will fall. It is all up to you Fainu, leave in a few days and get rid of this curse or live the rest of what life you have left in the shadows."
Cree knew she didn't need to put someone in that type of situation. She only felt it right to actually do something in her life. "If the wrong person does something right it is considered wrong, yet if the right person does something wrong it is considered right. Fainu I think it is time that we actually do something about our life. If anything fails we can always come back to the Shire and then go back to Eryn Lasgalen or Rivendell. Take your pick." Cree was no longer sure of what she was saying. She for once believed that she had drunk too much ale. "Forgive me my friend, it seems that my own mouth has ran away with myself." Cree blushed in embarrasement but also in frustration. She had never known herself to ramble like that before.
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