"I had to, Avalon is her own bird and I am merely her friend. There is nothing else for me to do for her now. She has served her purpose in my path so far. Now it is time for her to make something of herself. Fáinu, I can't help her any more." Cree didn't know what else to tell him. Everything she had tried and failed on was just another bad memory, she wasn't going to put up with. She could feel her heart breaking as she realized that she was indeed alone. She had pushed Avalon away from her and now it was too late to turn back. "Fáinu, what do I do now? Do I just sat here and waste away to nothing or do I go out and make something of myself before my own curse becomes my end?"
Cree knew she was asking questions to which Fáinu had no answer, but she needed to ask them anyways. Nothing else matter to her. Avalon was gone and sooner or later, Fáinu would leave her as well. She had no choice but to set back and watch her life fall apart in front of her. Everything that had meaning to her was now nothing at all. She had nothing she could do now. She had brought about the beginning of her self-constructed ending. There was no turning back for her and now she was forced to set back and watch as everything collapsed at her touch. Deep down inside Cree feared that if she touched Fáinu that he too would dissapear like everything else. "What else is left for me in this land anymore?"
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And when this life is over... and I stand before the God... I'll dream I'm back here standing in my nowhere land of Oz.....
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