I agree with Morm.
We have our mutual history of suspicion, but I really think you should go forwards - even if providing little or any help to us. If you are in the middle of a RL- crises, I understand, this sounds superficial. But really Roa! Believe me this once, when I say I would really miss you.
And if you are pulling our leg with this, I will be haunting you forever after this one - but I just couldn't believe that from you. You are a too good sport to pull these things out. So take care of yourself - and courage! That's what we need in life... more of it outside the BD, of course.
Fight for the good - as you do here, when you are not a wolf! I know you can do it!