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Guy's heated words woke Nogrod up. He rose up and looked at the guy guestioningly as now he was totally baffled about the young man. After rubbing his beard for a moment he walked to the guy and sat down beside him - looking him straight into the eyes.
"This satisfied smile on your face bothers me a lot, I must say. Otherwise I'm just baffled."
Guy looked at the old man waiting for some further clearance.
"We seem to disagree on some basic points as to what is good for us or what the wolves might think is advantageous to them. There's nothing bad in that and even if I still believe I have the more reasonable approach to this I admit that people may think differently and that's natural. Even though I'd like to say that some ideas are better than the others..."
Nogrod made a pause and pulled his pipe yet again. But while he started filling it he continued as well.
"I think we two have wasted too much time on this stuff already and that's bad for us all as little constructive sharing seems to be going on after everyone else either sleeps or comments our discussion. If we have time at one point or another I will answer all of your questions - by basically repeating what I have already said - but as it feels I've used most of my time to it already I think I can use my hours in a better way right now as I feel fresh and energetic.
But there is one thing I would like to voice out before I start thinking the larger picture in earnest and that is your seeming retaliatoriness and "heatedness" as you yourself described it... That is something that is always so hard to judge.
I mean I know it myself that when I'm innocent I tend to get much more agitated with someone making a case on me because I know it's false and thence this leads me to suspect that the case-maker as an evil person. That's natural and speaks on your behalf my lad.
But you should also remember that some wolves are a bit touchy as well - and I kind of remember that one of your quite recent forefathers was pretty aggressive and arrogant - should I say - when my ancestor had catched him from wolvery... So this satisfaction of yours right here and now, and your confidence. These really make me think.
We innocents don't know about things but we need to think and rethink all the time. So we seldom can be sure or satisfied with our suspicions, not to say of our decisions. Something always nags in one's head: maybe this isn't right? maybe I'm mislead, maybe I think this the wrong way?
So I'm baffled with you as you can see. I'm tending to believe my theory of Androg is right and your half-innocent half-guilty situation makes you act like you do but I'm not forgetting you."
Nogrod rose up and nodded to the guy.
"I'll go out and think now for something else. We need to see our options clearer now. You may dislike me for trying to see all the possibilities..."
With that he glanced at Mac, but smiled in the end.
"But someone needs to think them. If our wolves or just the other one of them is now safely outside any consideration - which consideration seems to involve only Gil, Izzy, the guy and myself - we need to do something about it. And as no one else here seems to be able or willing to even try to help us with bringing in new perspectives then I will try it. I'm old and my lifespan will be short anyhow."
Nogrod left the hall and wandered outside past the pool and settled himself to the crest lighting his pipe.
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