I had a rather creepy and rather depressing BD dream, but as it amused me on some level and I found it quite interesting, so I'll post it anyway...
It was a sunny afternoon. I,
Greenie, my three best RL friends (including
Aganzir),
Volo and
Lhuna were in
Nogrod's place, drinking tea and chatting. Suddenly,
Volo turned to me and said in a low voice: "There's something I must tell you. In private." I cast him a quizzical look, but agreed to come to talk with him in the corridor.
"What's the matter?" I asked.
"I... I killed
Legate and
Nilp," he replied, "I must hide the bodies."
I looked at him (with an "oh silly boy what have you done now" -expression) and said, at length: "Then I guess I must help you."
We went to the yard and the rest of the tea party came with us.
Volo would not have wanted to tell them what was the matter, but I refused to keep it secret. None of the others wanted to help
Volo, they just stared at him in silence. Then
Lhuna, looking very pale, said she wanted to go home and left.
I helped
Volo nevertheless. He had buried the bodies to the grass in the yard, only something like 10cm (4 inches) deep. I said it was a very poor place and that they should be hidden elsewhere.
Legate's body was very small and white and had a big head, of
Nilpaurion there was only one hand and one other piece left. I don't know what
Volo had done to him, but I remember thinking it was quite a crafty way to kill someone since there were so little remains. Anyway, we dumped what was left of
Nilp and
Legate to the biowaste and covered them with mould.
Then I was suddenly in a room that resembled the room I and
Greenie shared when I was something like five years old. My three friends and
Greenie were in the room with me. Now it was one of my best friends, not
Volo, who had killed
Nilp and
Legate. I was very sad, crying all the time, and unbelievably angry at my friend, who seemed to find her deed very funny and just kept laughing. My other friends and
Greenie weren't any more comforting. They kept telling me things like:
"Stop whining. People die every now and then."
"You have a lot of friends. Losing two of them hardly matters." (I think
Agan was the one who said this...)
"What happens, happens. Get over it."
"It isn't such a big deal."
"I can't see why you're
that upset by that."
"She did it, and so what? You can't change it anymore. It doesn't matter."
I tried to explain that it surely mattered to me and that it really was horrible for me. One of the examples/arguments I used was: "Just think! I've been away from 'downs for a day. In that time,
Legate probably made ten posts before he died. Ten posts of his I've never read, and that's all! And now that you've killed him, he will never write new posts. Never! Can't you see? Even if I read only one of those posts per year, there would only be unread posts by him for ten years! And then it's over, I will never hear anything new of him again!"
I called them cruel, immoral and heartless and was very angry at them all.
Then, I woke up. We were still in the same room. I started crying again, because I had been so nasty to my friends as they really hadn't said those things and no one had really killed
Legate and
Nilp. I explained that I had thought it to be true because it was such a life-like dream (it had really felt very real). They said it was alright and understandable.
Then I
really woke up. I was safely in my own bed, alone and thought, "that was a really disturbing dream". I can't really explain this, but in the dream, the dream within the dream had seemed very real and life-like, but when I woke up, both the dream and the dream within the dream seemed quite unreal. Definitely weird.
Also, I think it's quite amusing how the atmosphere and my attitude changes from the first part of the dream to the second. First, I'm very pragmatic and matter-of-fact, and not really moved by what has happened, but in the second part I'm upset, angry and very sad. Odd, isn't it? All in all, I think the first part is quite grotesque but amusing in a way (I and
Volo are acting so oddly!
) and it was not nightmare-ish at all, but the second part was really depressing, I'm not sure if I could call it a nightmare, but it was definitely a very bad dream.
And I really don't know what to make of this habit of mine of having rather sinister BD dreams...
I hope no one involved is seriously creeped out by this.
And lastly, I should probably make it clear that my friends aren't normally like that... this was just a weird dream.