I can't be around much but I have one post to make - I owe you all an apology and an explanation. I'm sorry I got myself lynched for I was the ranger. (Why reveal now, well, what kind of a living ranger would not have revealed yesterDay?
And I want to make sure there are no more false reveals.) I was just so darn stupid, I knew
Mac was trying to flush me out so I couldn't just give up and give him what he wants - but I should have done that when I got the two votes. (You know, when I was trying to sleep after staying awake so long, I had a few lines from the song Hellfire from Disney's The Hunchback of Notre Dame stuck in my head: "mea culpa, mea culpa, mea maxima culpa" and "it's not my fault, but in God's plan, he made the devil so much stronger than a man".)
Anyway, you can now finally stop wondering at my behaviour - you know why
Mac's "reveal" didn't make me falter, you know why I had to stay awake all night. (Yes, I'm stupid, I decided already very early I have to stay awake as long as possible so that I can counter when
Mac makes a ranger reveal - I knew he was going to do it at some phase - and then I didn't do it even when it would have been necessary, not that people would necessarily have believed me anyway... But I was so darn stupid, argh, it's going to take months or
Nerwen's proven cobblerism that I can forgive myself, I let pride go before common sense, I didn't want
Mac to flush me out and I was so sure I'd finally make a save next Night if I was allowed to live... Well, I learned a lesson there.)
Why was I so aggressive about
Mac? Well I was and am really certain of his guilt, it looks evident. But like I told
Boro yesterDay, I did not let my occasional swings of uncertainity show, I just kept trusting my general impression and attacking him recklessly - I figured after a while that it'd keep me alive because the mutineers would never ever expect a ranger to be so reckless and they wouldn't kill me if I was right about
Mac. So it was all well until yesterDay's disaster.
And because you probably want to know, even though it doesn't matter, my picks were
Mira,
Nerwen,
Rikae (holy cow she threatened to take me with her so I had to protect her even though I thought she was probably lying and that the mutineers may avoid her because of the possible protection, I just couldn't take the risk - I wish I had followed the no riks tactic later on too),
Kath (I think, I'm not sure to be honest, I might have protected
Mith or
Nerwen too, but I think it was
Kath) and
Boro (I was so sure it's going to be me that Night, or possibly him, but no one else for certain - well I was thinking
Zil is a mutineer
).
So maybe knowing this, you can also judge
Mac better. I say we lynch him, and
Shasta next, the way he acted yesterDay was definitely NOT innocent. I advice looking at everybody's reactions yesterDay, it will probably help a lot.
I'm not sure we can win this anymore, there being probably 2 wolves and 2 cobblers around, but we can try, and that starts with lynching
Mac.
++Macalaure
Goodbye. You managed to get the ranger lynched, hats off to that, but otherwise you were a crappy mutineer because you were so obvious.
